Again with the VQFF

One of the hard things about the ongoing boycott of the Vancouver Queer Film Festival due to its unwillingness to deal with the PACBI, is the intense silence around it by those who choose to participate in it directly. From the festival organization itself, to film makers, to workshop presenters, there is silence. People who participate and say nothing about it when i know for a fact you are well aware of it (some of whom may have even participated in the boycott previously albeit briefly), don’t mention there even *is* an ongoing boycott, don’t mention it in their beaming posts about the festival, or program, or in the write-ups for their films and events in it, etc.; but do talk about the representation, the community, the “new queer territories” these films will apparently transport you to [which is interesting(?) ironic(?) language]. Look, i get it. There are all kinds of reasons for participating. But if you are participating in the VQFF, the very least you can do is be honest about what you’re putting aside to do so. You can’t not-know what you know.
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i invite you to “See For Yourself” (that’s apparently this year’s theme), to “give yourself over” to the reality of what this ongoing silence actually does.

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the perils/joys of being constantly unpredictable

It can be really hard sometimes living in a constantly unpredictable disabled body. i feel like i can’t be depended on in so many ways because some random shit will go down (ulcer! crohn’s flare! internal bleeding! spasms! random mystery sickness! sciatica! chem exposure! etc!) on top of my other usual gimpy stuff, and i’ll have to readjust/ cancel/ drop out/ etc.

And yet… oftentimes living in a constantly unpredictable disabled body has also forced me to adapt, to acknowledge and work with change, to come up with new ideas in a way i wouldn’t have otherwise, to not get so attached to one thing or one way.

i don’t know if things ever “even out” or whatever (and i’m challenging myself around allowing that unattainable ableist demand to completely wreck me), but i keep telling myself it’s ok when it doesn’t, maybe it’s even just as good, maybe it’s better, maybe it’s just something else altogether. Finding other people who are ok with it too isn’t easy, but when i do, i know i’m finding my people.

 

 

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Hiatus

Hey folks, just wanted to give a bit of an update to say that i’m going to be on a continued break from auditing for the foreseeable future. i’d really encourage you to have a look at the free audit templates here on the site, and to conduct audits in-house. Just please be sure to link in credits to RAMP, and to send me a digital copy of the audit so i can add it to the list of available audits. If you have any pressing questions about the audit itself, you can still reach me at rampvancouver@gmail.com

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“Curiosity: Vancouver’s Straw Ban – Another Barrier and Another Excuse For Non-Disabled People to Shame, Marginalize, Interrogate and Demonstrate They Don’t Care About Discrimination Against Disabled People”

Please take some time to read this blog post by mssinenomineblog. It is and isn’t about straws and the straw ban, it’s about living as a disabled person in a system that would prefer you dead, and it’s also about solidarity.

i don’t often use straws, and even less often need them, but i understand why this is a huge deal. Do better. Take the time to learn and understand. And whatever you do, keep the sanctimonious judgemental ableist enviro snipsnapping to yourself.

via Curiosity: Vancouver’s Straw Ban – Another Barrier and Another Excuse For Non-Disabled People to Shame, Marginalize, Interrogate and Demonstrate They Don’t Care About Discrimination Against Disabled People

 

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CALL TO ACTION: THE KINDER MORGAN BAILOUT IS A DECLARATION OF WAR BY CANADA AGAINST INDIGENOUS PEOPLES

Please head over to the website and learn more:

https://www.secwepemculecw.org/act-of-war

THE KINDER MORGAN BAILOUT IS A DECLARATION OF WAR BY CANADA AGAINST INDIGENOUS PEOPLES

“A declaration of war has been issued against Indigenous peoples in Canada by the federal government. By bailing out Kinder Morgan’s investment in the Trans Mountain pipeline, Canada has announced its ongoing intention to violate Indigenous title, law and jurisdiction, as well as the constitutional rights of Indigenous peoples, and all protocols of international law protecting Indigenous peoples’ homelands and right to consent to development on their lands.”

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Scent-reduction can’t be just an option, a preference; it’s got to be a practice.

When scent-reduction of events and spaces is framed as an option, a “please”, a “we’ll try to”, a “preference”, with few-to-no clear boundaries or outcomes if folks do arrive scented, that doesn’t create the necessary container required for an accessible space. i go through the world assuming that chemical scents are going to be everywhere, so i prepare as best i can. But when a space/ event/ etc calls itself scent-reduced or scent-free and doesn’t consistently follow through, that creates an extra dangerous situation. Please, if you’re going to advertise as being scent reduced or scent free, just fricken do it?
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assisted life

i’m being serious when i say that i want every single non-disabled person to read THIS ARTICLE, all the way through. Lovers, friends, family, acquaintances, whatever our connection, if you give a shit about the gimps in your life/ community/ periphery, i want YOU to read this and really think about what it means.

i’d like you to think about what it means that instead of access to the things that make disabled folks’ lives work in the bodies we have, we’re “offered” / pushed into “assisted suicide” because the burden of our existence is somehow just too much – not necessarily for us, but for others, for the state, for the people in control of the basic shit we need to live.

Disabled folks aren’t unique in having to beg for the most utterly basic services to keep us alive. This is an ableism thing, it’s a racism thing, a classist thing, a white supremacist cisheteropatriarchal thing, a capitalism thing. This shit is connected and if you’re gonna be any part of my life you have an obligation to pay attention.

This is the very thing that so many disabled folks have been saying for decades, and i want you to listen to us, to stop talking in abstracts, riddles and metaphors about “assisted suicide”, and listen to what we’re saying when we share our concerns and fears about this. We’re the ones who end up on the shit-end of this all, but that “we” can just as quickly be “you”, make no mistake.

Please note that i absolutely respect other disabled folk’s right to choose it. There are people in my life who have done so, and who the hell knows, maybe i would have to choose it at some point. i want to have autonomy over my own life, and i wouldn’t try to take that from anyone.

What i have a problem with is it so often being the only option that a lot of us are given because what we need to live isn’t provided, because our lives aren’t valued, because in general disabled lives aren’t valued, and because specific kinds of disabled lives are especially not valued. The problem for me is that for so many disabled folks, this “choice” isn’t a choice at all, it’s the only option, the first suggestion, the thing that we are supposed to be so grateful for when it’s not actually what we would always choose for ourselves.

And i want more nuanced conversations about it that don’t centre the needs and whims of the state, which is so often what’s happening.

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Note: i will not engage in any debate about this here. If you do, it’ll be removed and i may need to consider removing you as well. It’s not about not being able to handle discussion, discourse, difference, whatever. It’s about refusing to debate my right as a disabled person to not listen to folks defending disabled death over disabled life; and being able to call the shots on this topic in this one small space. Please don’t do it here.

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