Transportation, Not Deportation (and harassment, targeting, assault, murder, etc)!



Friday February 20, Vancouver

“This afternoon, Transit Police informed representatives of the Transportation not Deportation campaign that they will terminate their Memorandum of Understanding with CBSA, that officers must receive permission from a Watch Commander to initiate contact with CBSA, and that they will not detain people without warrants for items that are simply contravention of immigration law,” confirms Omar Chu of Transportation not Deportation.

Since 2007, Transit Police and the Pacific Region Enforcement Center of CBSA have had a Memorandum of Understanding. Transit Police reported three hundred and twenty eight people to Canada Border Services Agency in 2013, one in five of whom faced a subsequent immigration investigation including deportation. Only 1.5% of all those referred to CBSA even had immigration warrants out. From November 2012 to January 2013, Transit police made had more referrals to CBSA than any other BC police force including the VPD and RCMP.

One of these people was Mexican migrant and hotel worker Lucia Vega Jiménez, who later committed suicide while in CBSA custody. At the coroner’s inquest into her death, a Transit Police officer testified that he turned Lucia over to Canada Border Services Agency, in part, because Lucia had an accent and that he believed “she wasn’t originally from Canada.”

“Public transit is not be a border checkpoint. This MOU should never have been in place but now as a direct result of grassroots community mobilizing including forty organizations and over 1500 people demanding an end to Transit Police and CBSA collaboration, Transit police will not be enforcing federal immigration policy,” says Harsha Walia of Transportation not Deportation.

The Transportation not Deportation! campaign will continue with our intention to flood the Transit Police board meeting on Friday, February 27th to ensure implementation of this policy that keeps public transportation free from immigration policy enforcement.”

Please read, and sign on if you agree, and/or share this. The Radical Access Mapping Project totally supports the 5 demands noted below. Public transit should not be a border checkpoint, and should not come with the risk of harassment, arrest, or worse. Disability justice includes access to public transit free from racist targeting; public transit MUST be accessible for ALL.

“25 groups have signed onto Transportation not Deportation campaign. Check it and have your group endorse too if you agree with the five demands.

Not part of a group, no worries, sign and circulate this petition and help us get to 2,000 signatures that we can hammer away at the next Translink board meeting.

“We believe our public transit system should not be a border checkpoint. Translink and Transit Police should not ask for or retain immigration status information, and should they learn of someone’s immigration status they should not share that information with Canada Border Services Agency (CBSA).”

1) End racial profiling of people on our public transit system and ensure access without fear of criminalization or deportation to all residents.2) Terminate the Memorandum of Understanding between Transit Police and CBSA.

3) Stop turning people over to CBSA and stop enforcing federal immigration law, particularly given that most Transit Police referrals to CBSA are for situations where no warrant even exists.

4) Ensure that a range of identification is accepted as sufficient to verify identity when needed.

5) Remove CBSA phone numbers as well as all immigration-related databases from Translink and Transit Police databases.

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[Re Image Descriptions. 2 different images may come up when accessing the post.

1) a play on a vancouver area bus ticket, a white background with salmon coloured patches, and black text which reads:

“Trans Link
Referrals to CBSA, 2013: 328
(in a coloured arrow) 1 in 5 resulted in an immigration investigation”

2) A comic style drawing of a gun pointing at a line of people of different colours standing inside a stylized bus; the folks of colour have their hands in the air a la “surrender”, while the white peoples’ hands are down. There is a Trans Link logo to the side. The text reads: “FAIR CHECK?”


Not all the time, but sometimes i find it really hard to feel hot (as in foxy, sexy, DAMN! y’know, however you describe such a thing, if you do) as someone living with chronic pain and other ongoing, lifelong health stuff that’s permanent, disabling, inconvenient, sometimes embarrassing, that’s still considered shameful or sad or “a waste” by lots of folks.
i’ve had a lot of years of practice at it –and i’m not a self-hating gimp (but really, what is “self-hatred” when you’re living in a society that more often than not would prefer you die off?), i’ve got access to different communities and to many friends and loves who experience some similar and some dissimilar things around those feelings; i’m not alone in it– and yet it’s still not easy, it doesn’t just come. And there’s pressure –even and sometimes especially within disability communities– to spin some sort of golden sexy shit out of it all the fucking time. Sometimes that’s just fine for me, and i do that too. But when that’s not possible, it so often feels like a personal failing, something just inherently not good enough about me and this body [and there are multiple sources all around perfectly happy to reinforce that message].

It’s actually really hard to be constantly fighting those fucked up messages, from inside me, inside communities, and from the general public, and to continue to practice some sort of self-love even when those fucked up messages get inside.

And there’s this too:

i’m grateful for every gimp i’ve ever known, whether or not you feel hot, or desirable, or wanted every moment; whether or not you live up to the expectations we so often put on one another; whether or not someone has ever met you and been fortunate to feel the pull of wanting to know more of your brilliance. You and i are a blanket of stars, covering, warming, hiding, holding secrets and joy and heat for days and days on fucking end…

and sometimes when i cover myself, even just my toes, with you, with us, i feel that burn.

we breathe resistance

i don’t need you to be “healed” to help me.

i think it’s a misunderstanding(?) or too simplistic(?) to always just say that if you’re broken/ tired/ sick/ drained/ etc that you can’t care for others. i do understand the intention is about encouraging folks to take care of ourselves, to replenish, to build resistance and resilience inside ourselves (with what?) so that we can also bring that wherever we go. i understand “put your oxygen mask on and THEN help others“.

But that’s not all it is. That’s not all there can be. i know this, because i know that i and other variously sick and disabled and hurting folks help others all the time, support others, care for others, at times yes prioritize others, etc, and still we go on. i know this.

i also know that so much of “you can’t help others if you are hurting etc” is informed however unintentionally by various kinds of ableism, as well as by a certain amount of… well… ability to have the time and space to separate these things out somehow in the first place; or even just being able to separate it out at all. i know this.

Sick and disabled and hurting people are parents, healers, teachers, caregivers, artists, volunteers, mechanics, factory workers, sex workers, can collectors, we’re friends to drink coffee with and talk about love with and shed tears with and do jigsaw puzzles with and make food with and sit in grass with and and and… and we are already doing this work, this expanding of, this expression of, this sharing of what we are capable of, and some things we are frankly not capable of… AND we are still sick and disabled and hurting. i AM ALWAYS disabled. i will ALWAYS BE disabled. It doesn’t go away on a retreat, it doesn’t lessen with self-care, and it doesn’t mean that i can’t properly love and support you or make decisions about what that can look like for me. i will always be disabled, and will grow increasingly more disabled as the years go on. That takes a toll on me, it requires that i do an increasing and adaptable amount of “self care” –> “self care” which requires an increasing and adaptable amount of energy –> energy i have less and less of. That reality does not mean that there is now or will ever be a time, a cutoff, when i will stop loving and supporting you. This is the reality.

And so is this:
i don’t need you to be healed to love and support me.
i don’t need my oxygen mask to love and support you.
We breathe life into one another.
We breathe love into one another.
We breathe resistance into one another.
This is one of the things disability community has taught me.
That is self-care.


what’s terror* anyways?

So here’s the thing about this All** Bodies Dance Project i’ve been going to. While there are some things about it i don’t connect with and/or that don’t reflect me. i pushed past that and went. And to be honest, i’m mortified to be there, to be moving around a room with these strangers, to be waving around, moving my body these ways, even to call it dancing. It’s public, it’s open, there are floor-to-ceiling windows in the room through which passersby can -if they choose- watch for a moment or the entire time as they make their way to other activities in the rec centre. It’s embarrassing and exposing, and physically daunting (even within the context of uncommonly broad understandings of “movement”, where one person’s full body twirly thing can be another person’s finger bend, and is just as beautiful and celebrated and understood).

And i fucking love it and can’t wait for the next class.

i’m not a dancer, in any context, and i’ve never moved my body (this incarnation of this body, which is currently composed of: my flesh body, this scooter, and my crutches, this ADHD PTSD CAPD brain, this chem sensitive body, this white immigrant body, this fat body, this trans body, this queer body, this survivor body) the way i have in these classes. And i’ve sure as hell never moved these ways with others. i’ve navigated this incarnation/incantation, this gimp/imp, through tear-gassed cop-overrun demonstrations, busy downtown streets filled with suits and cars and a hundred freaked out pigeons, through raucous stuffed-past-the-walls concerts, malls of ambling unpredictable shoppers, dungeons with whips and sweat flying, moving buses, darkened slippery sticky bath houses, trains, broken up sidewalks, pools, gimp porn shoot, beaches, walls of linked arms/ legs/ wheelchairs/ canes/ etc at protests, grassy fields, you name it, i’ve rolled it (including some mishaps, to be sure, including throwing myself off a curb into a busy street then running over my own foot). While that all likely prepared me to be able to navigate this purely in the technical sense, it didn’t prepare me for navigating with these people. My people. [A wave of overwhelm writing those last words. Some of that overwhelm comes from the fact that some of these people are not disabled, and it takes so much to trust people who are not disabled with my body. Yes, particularly able bodied people, but really, ALL people who are not variously disabled. And the thought of, the act of, considering these people among “my people” is striking to me.]

i’ve done a lot with my body, and have struggled with and loved my body for a very very long time, including getting used to each change in its functioning while trying to keep up with other’s responses to it. i’ve struggled (and still do) with feelings of shame, embarrassment, anxiety, fear, grief, of feeling utterly un-attractive and unlovable as this body. And i’ve worked hard to show [and not-show] parts of that because holy fuck there is enough, there is just so already enough of that, and because i’m sick of the way able bodied people so often look at me with those cartoon welling up pity eyes, grief eyes, embarrassed eyes, disgusted eyes; when i want to be looked at with joy eyes, and lust eyes..]

Weaving in and out among other folks on wheels, and/or with canes, and/or who do/don’t use other supports, and/or who can and can’t hear and/or process and/or see and judge distances in different ways etc; some people who are able bodied, who can leap and dive and see and hear everything and spin, who are not looking at me with those fucking pity eyes, we all moving in ways that feel weird and scary and comforting and awkward, and unlike anything else i’ve navigated.

i passed by someone during one exercise where we were moving through the space only in curved lines. We were forming and moving our whole bodies/ individual limbs/ fingers/ devices/ etc variously in curves, and doing it in such utterly individual and yet thoroughly connected ways. As we passed one another, her version of curve met and briefly -just a couple seconds- played with my version of curve, and then we moved on. i thought i’d burst into tears.

i think the thing about living in a sometimes terrifying body for so long is that… i don’t know… maybe the terrifying becomes… passe, day to day, status quo, usual, familiar. So familiar that i can’t imagine it any other way (and why should i / would i?), can’t remember most of what it used to be (which is sometimes a blessing actually). So familiar that the terrifying is still terrifying (and still embarrassing, still nerve wracking, etc), but it stops freezing me in my tracks. Maybe it’s about getting older too, i don’t know, the combinations. Of being cut open, of being broken, of surviving. But whatever it is, i do know that this seems to be a time in my life of trying terrifying new things.

i’m not suggesting this broken body is a “gift” or some other cliche bullshit (another post on that for another day), but isn’t that an interesting thing right there? Without this broken body, without this reality, this terror, what experiences would i not have had? What emotional tundra might i never have felt poke at and soothe and cool and burn and tickle my bare toes? Without this body, would i have ever imagined in my wildest that what looked like simply passing by someone and sharing our curve for a couple seconds could cause me to feel and connect with something so deeply that i nearly burst into tears in a room filled with strangers? i don’t know about you, but i’d rather be terrified and enjoying the wonder of that than just sitting with the festering wondering of “what if?”

If it took this broken body to get me here, all i can do is reach my hands up, groping the furthest i can muster, whether in a curve or angled, whether with others or moving through a space by myself, and thank every. single. fucking. star. that ever was or will be for this, for me, my broken.

[*“terror” is a loaded word, i know. i don’t use it lightly; and when using it, i think about the huge range of possibilities of terror, and beyond, lifelong, inflicted. How it’s attached to certain bodies like a series of stick pins, and how it is thrown around like flotsam by others. i don’t use it lightly, i use it to express the emotions i feel when it comes to my body and being in the world with it.]
** After some refreshing conversation about it, i’m changing this from “All [sic]” to “All**” because the former seems unnecessarily snarky/judgey in this context, makes a definitive statement that something bad has happened, some mistake has been made, and kinda closes off conversation about it.  i’m not going for that here, even though every space/ event can use some more examination into who that “All” encompasses.

Learn more about the All Bodies Dance Project here: Continue reading

(accessibility feature) + (defensiveness) = inaccessible

i know immediately if something will be actually, meaningfully, tangibly accessible to me the moment organizers get super defensive about simply being asked for accessibility info.

e.g. ramps + defensiveness about it = inaccessible

e.g. screencaps + defensiveness about it = inaccessible

e.g. scent-reduced + defensiveness about it = inaccessible

e.g. pay-what-you-can + defensiveness about it = inaccessible

and so on.

Again, accessibility has little meaning if everything about the event, about the space, about the organizing/ers screams “INACCESSIBLE!!!!”

That predictable pattern does suck, but the one pretty neat thing is that if you start by not getting defensive, all kinds of cool shit can happen.

RAMP on Pinkwashing at the Vancouver Queer Film Festival

will be updating this as new statements/info comes in ]


Well, the deadline for the outstanding demand for a signing on to a BDS resolution no later than November 29th, 2014 (the United Nations International Day of Solidarity with the Palestinian People) has clearly come and gone. The VQFF has not signed on, has not made a statement of support or even of much if any clarification, has turned down external offers of knowledgeable support from QuAIA, from SFPIRG, from the Ad-hoc alliance of Vancouver QTIPOC organizations, and from others who are specifically experienced with this occupation and the resistance to it while not normalizing the occupation, and has continued to speak about this as mainly an advertising issue. It isn’t.

The VQFF has also not updated about the issue i raised (maybe others did too? If so, i havent seen it, so please pass it along!) regarding their use of the “passport” in this past year’s fest, which included perks to a bunch of notorious gentrifying businesses (e.g. Pidgin) in the Downtown Eastside – businesses taking part in poorbashing, arresting activists, clearing out the DTES of its predominantly poor, disabled, and Indigenous communities. This too is not simply an advertising issue.

i will personally continue my boycott of the VQFF until such time as there is discernible action taken on these issues, and hope you will consider joining me and many others as we continue to seek concrete answers from those who would represent our communities.

From Turtle Island to Palestine, liberation!

Below is the email i received from the Executive Director.

“We hope this email finds you well, and acknowledge some time has passed since we last connected. We do want to provide you with an update and express again our appreciation to you for your generous contributions to Out On Screen over the years.

As we indicated this summer, Out On Screen has committed to a multistage process to review our advertising and programming policies.

As you are aware, we received a large volume of diverse and deeply passionate feedback from our stakeholders. We heard from some that the Yad b’Yad ad is celebratory and represents bridge-building between Jewish and LGBTQ communities. We have heard from some that this ad was hurtful in light of the tragedy occurring in Gaza. We heard from folks who feel that, by accepting this ad, we strayed from our values as an organization. Some can’t imagine why a local film festival would take a position on this issue.

We received letters from community groups, activists, filmmakers, and individuals. One letter reminded us of the famous ACT UP motto: SILENCE=DEATH, and reminded us that choosing neutrality in a situation of oppression is a form of complicity. Some letters have expressed a belief that the ad is a form of pinkwashing, and some of those went on to ask that we formally sign onto the Academic and Cultural boycott of Israel. Another letter asked if we’d be having this conversation if it was another country’s flag flying beside the rainbow flag? Or is it only the case with the Israeli flag?

All of the feedback we received has been, and is, central to the process, one that is designed to equip diverse members of the Out On Screen Board and staff to have an honest and open review of whether the advertising policy and programming process are in alignment with an artistic and social justice mandate. We will be doing so, both broadly and in context of the Israeli/Palestinian conflict and the occupation.

These last few weeks, 15 members of our Board and staff participated in four sessions facilitated by Aftab Erfan (PhD). Aftab has worked in urban and regional planning for more than 10 years and currently teaches the Negotiation, Facilitation and Conflict Resolution class at the School for Community and Regional Planning at UBC among other classes and training. The foundation of Aftab’s facilitation practice is the Deep Democracy methodology which works with tensions and conflict in order engage broader sets of stakeholders in challenging and charged issues. Her dissertation was a community-based action research in a small indigenous community on Vancouver Island and she has worked in and with multiple municipalities throughout the Lower Mainland as well as with varied non-profits, social entrepreneurship organizations and social change groups.

The process thus far has engaged this representational group of Board & staff in discussing diverse views on social justice within the organization. A selection of articles and videos from diverse authors and media-makers as well as the feedback to date was provided as a way to discuss the issue. The group then undertook the policy and process review to consider ways in which they do or should reflect our mandates and values.

Where we are at now in our process: as a result of our facilitated sessions, the group is drafting recommendations that will be brought forward to our Board of Directors’ December meeting. Following that, we anticipate that in early 2015 we will be in a place to share a summary of the process, updated policies and procedures and details on what to expect moving forward.

Our Board of Directors recognizes that this process is essential to the integrity of the organization and is clear in making this deep review a priority. We recognize there is a broader interest for Out On Screen to engage directly with queer communities at large on this issue. We must also humbly recognize our constraints and be clear that we do not have the capacity to engage multiple external organizations and individuals in a way that is both responsible to all parties and feasible. As an elemental part of our review, we did look to all the feedback we have received to date on this issue as a summary of the range of community responses. We are striving to balance transparency and confidentiality in ways that honour our integrity and responsibility to our communities. Our goal through all of this will be to craft durable solutions that will better guide the organization in the future.

Again, we deeply appreciate your thoughtful feedback and your patience as our team spends the necessary time to undertake this process with the commitment, courage and vision it requires. We know that we received this degree of feedback because community members care deeply and have invested much in the organization. Our diverse communities matter to us and while we will not be able to satisfy all parties’ hopes, we are confident that this process will reflect the values and mandate of the organization.


Drew Dennis ,  Executive Director

& James Ong,   Board Chair”

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On July 11th, i sent a letter to the Vancouver Queer Film Fest on behalf of myself and the Radical Access Mapping Project, expressing my concern about a pinkwashing advert in the most recent film guide. Much has happened since (not to mention in the two years of previous attempts by the likes of QuAIA to engage the festival in discussion about Boycott, Divestment, Sanctions). The Radical Access Mapping Project absolutely and completely supports Queers Against Israeli Apartheid, Sins Invalid, SFPIRG, Can Candan, and a number of individuals and groups from the QTIPOC ad hoc organization letter, and all others who have publicly stated they will not attend or support the Vancouver Queer Film Festival until it adequately addresses the pinkwashing it has engaged in. Many others have spoken to the issue and may or may not heed the call for boycott and pull their films and support, but all seem to be engaged in conversation about tactics, and finding ways to move forward that will bring some fundamental change. We give much respect to QuAIA for initiating the discussions years ago, with considerably less community support.

We encourage folks to please contact VQFF immediately and share your thoughts. Since originally writing the letter below to VQFF in July, in followup discussion it has been made clear that while discussion has certainly happened at VQFF, nothing is going to change for this years festival, nothing specific will be done to address this issue while the festival is on, and i am unclear as to whether the promises of engagement for post-festival will come to pass.

You can see more at the VQFF website where Drew Dennis, the Executive Director, speaks to the issue:

Commentary like “…the Israeli/Palestinian conflict is a deeply personal and political issue…“, and “…we have decided to donate the funds received from this advertisement to Just Vision…” (which is actually not the kind of organization i feel addresses the issues, but reinforces the notion that this is some sort of equal-footing “conflict”, which it so clearly is not) does not instill confidence in a real look at what the issues are.

RAMP holds out hope that something will change, but for now, we are pulling all our support from the VQFF and will instead work to support those individuals and organizations who are actively rejecting pinkwashing at VQFF and beyond. We may offer some kind of support for folks wishing to engage in dialogue or other action within the festival.

Most importantly, RAMP sends a message of solidarity to all disabled people, everywhere, and particularly those facing occupation and other forms of state violence, and escalating military actions as we write this. We see you. We will not participate in the occupations being forced upon you. And we will not contribute legitimacy to your erasure by our presence at this festival.

From here on Turtle Island, to Palestine and beyond. Solidarity! Resistance! Liberation!

See more under this cut from RAMP, QuAIA, Sins Invalid, and other organizations and individuals, and some ways to get involved…

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Representation, again.

Recognizing that most often there is no representation at all (and therefore, i guess, we should be happy anyone is even thinking about it?), visual representations of those of us who do have visible / perceptible / etc physical disabilities (and, ideally, representations which don’t pander to ableist niceties and notions of what it is to be physically disabled in this particular way, but let’s not get carried away) are necessary, they are important, they matter; and to me they do not and cannot take the place of representing all disabled folks. When certain stereotypical images* are used to represent “all disabilities” -to the inevitable exclusion of the outrageous diversity across disability- they do a disservice to all of us, and they do ableism’s dirty work for it. No thanks.

And yet, i still return to my reality that images of those of us who have visible / perceptible / etc physical disabilities (in addition to whatever else we got goin’ on) matter. As a sighted person, it matters to me when i don’t see anything like that, and it matters when i do. Yes, i do take note of a lack of assistive devices, canes, wheels, masks, braces, amplifiers, bandages, oxygen tanks, plugs, bags assistants, etc., and variously bent / broken disabled bodies represented in a project. Not because i believe that that’s somehow the only way to assess the kind of disability “inclusion/ exclusion” that’s happening in any given project or community (it’s not), or because i think that disability looks one specific way (it doesn’t). i take note because it matters to me to see some however tiny piece of my experience reflected, the piece that “just happens to be” the most blatantly obvious thing about me specifically about certain disability experiences. That means something.

i tire of people saying when they are asked about there being no visual representation of certain kinds of disability (particularly when they are assessing other kinds of inclusion/exclusion via specifically visual cues) “well, you can’t tell who is disabled or not just by looking!”  In a similar way i tire when people who don’t seem to want to make a ramp materialize for their event say things like “Well access isn’t only about ramps you know!!” – as though it wasn’t fricken hugely variant disability justice communities that came up with that fancyass idea in the first place.

When there are no people with assistive devices or anything about our disabled bodies that is clearly, blatantly, pretty unceasingly marked  as disabled anywhere in a project, that actually MEANS something. To me, it doesn’t mean EVERYthing, but it sure as fuck means SOMEthing. i’d like to be able to talk about that very real experience of exclusion/inclusion without being told i must therefore think disability looks one way. If you know anything about me in relation to disabilities and access and ableism, you know this.

[*and im not actually talking about the international accessibility icon. that’s another conversation]